and so i sit in my perfectly simple life, the breeze gives my hammock a gentle push from time to time, the water laps at the shore
then .... in the distance i hear music .... it slowly gets louder .... it's the beach boys - kokomo ....
as the song comes to an end i hear a voice i recognize .... sadly it is a voice i know too well - it's "kitch" bringing me back to the reality of life ..... moose 99.5 and it's time for the 6 o'clock news... i don't think i'm in my hammock anymore toto
and so she begins to rhyme off the news of the day - it's a snow day in muskoka due to slippery conditions and poor visibility from blowing snow
while i am sure the radio announcer is a wonderful person she tends to set the tone of most of my days ~ be it weather, the stupidity of all levels of government, some kind of violence in the world or some completely preventable but devastating accident impacting one of our small local communities
this particular morning my mind races through all the things i had organized the night before (to simplify my morning) - gavin's lunch is packed and ready to go but now he doesn't need it. i have to check to see if it is ok that gavin goes to the daycare instead of school today because i have to get myself to work in these great weather conditions. instead, i text a wonderful friend who takes both the boys to hang with her brood for they day ... sigh... thank you
now i have to scrape the layer of ice off my truck and master the roads before i get to someplace in the road that a road's crew has actually visited with a sander
why do i write about this? because my first step in this process is to rid my life of the things that create stress. this is a huge undertaking that will be far more work than this simple act: but as of now i will no longer wake up to news
when i first came to the realization that creating a different kind of life for me and my family would help me in my ppd healing process i started looking and reading on line about creating a simple life. crazy what you can find out there on the topic. but from all the reading i have come to the conclusion that this is going to be a huge undertaking with many many things to do - according to one site it is going to involve 200 steps
the process will be hard and very involved but i know it is going to pay off in the end ... baby steps... baby steps... all 200 of them
step 3 from one of the zen based sites i visit
**overcome information overload**
tomorrow the alarm will be just that. some loud obnoxious horrible noise that makes me get up and start my day without the news of the world around me
- simply me -
THank you for starting your blog. its very comforting for me to read someone's real, honest thoughts. i agree 100% with you that there has got to be a path to a more simple life. i too struggle with the constraints that i have allowed a busy life to put on me. as a mum of 6 children, i am used to being busy. i love it and i guess to some extent have thrived on it. but as the days go on, my children get older and life becomes increasingly chaotic.
ReplyDeletedon;t get me wrong i love being a mum and having my children involved in stuff. i don't wish to sound selfish but it has become so difficult to carve out a few moments in which to be an adult, to carry on a conversation with another adult. when my children were younger, i felt complete within my day perhaps because i was constantly needed.
simple to me would mean less demands on my time and that of my kids...school do YOUR job and teach my children the material they need...don't send home for me to teach it to them when they are tired from sitting with you all day!!!!
Teri...share...the 200 steps
i have been told so many times (like when I tried to take a yoga class just for me....) that meditation and deep cleansing breaths should be a part of each and every day. maybe that should be my first step.
That is a good start. Every day take some time to simply breathe and pay attention to it
DeleteWriting is wonderful therapy. You do it well. Straight from the heart. Good luck with the experiment.
ReplyDeleteThank you Susan. That means a lot coming from a fabulous writer like you!
DeleteLooking good Teri!! Can't wait to read more!
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